heavy hearted

my heart has been so heavy the past couple days. i just feel like i want to cry, and often do with little provocation. im not really sure how to deal with this. do i just sit down for a cry? do i journal? is there some way to work through how i feel so that there is release and healing? what is my problem?

the only thing i can think of is to keep busy. don't let the sadness take over. keep it at bay with busy hands.

so, i tried going to the ceramics studio for open studio hours but the doors were locked. i came home and started messing about my art studio, listening to music. i made some phone calls so i could check those things off my to-do list. i put a couple hours into an online game i got into over the summer. i worked on gifts for people (im practicing cards with pop-outs using construction paper). i worked on photo organization. and im running out of stuff to "do."

i dont really feel like doing a whole lot of creative self-expression activities. but eventually im going to have to just stop doing and just be in the emotion.