brief episodes of vasospasm

previously on faerie moon... initial blood screenings came back indicating Lupus and Raynaud's (a vascular disease). further blood was drawn and we were waiting for the medical establishment to let us know the lowdown.

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doc called this week. with the recent barrage of tests, only one came back positive (mRNA). doc consulted a rheumatologist, and they told him that unless my liver is having problems (which it apparently isn't), a positive mRNA is meaningless, thus i have Raynaud's Disease (aka primary Raynaud's).

this means there is no underlying cause (such as an autoimmune disease, etc.) however, there is no cure for Raynaud's, so please do not ask me to get you some ice cream from the freezer... you'll have to get it yourself.

you're smart, so you probably inferred that i do not have Lupus. there is still a 1 in 20 chance i will develop Lupus or another such disease (according to doc).

treatment: i'm supposed to avoid cold and stress.
um.... that's what i've been trying to do for years! another valid reason to move to mexico, and be spoon fed ice cream :)

back to the mRNA thingy...
for some reason im having some difficulty believing a positive mRNA (or whatever the test was) doesn't have significance or some kind of meaning. if it was unimportant/meaningless they wouldn't test for it, right? there must be SOME meaning. it must mean SOMETHING. even if it just means "your RNA says 'hello' and wishes you'd take a vacation" or "you eat too much bread and have allergies to flies" (which i just made up, so if you're trying to find out what your positive mRNA test means, thats not it!)

and the interweb is no help in finding the mRNA meaning. so, when i get to NYC (which is where im moving this summer), i'll have to get in touch with local medical researchers and such to find out if anyone can tell me. i have two weird fears...

1. our rural docs are idiots,
2. they know i dont have medical insurance and whatever is wrong is in pretty early stages and non-fatal so they aren't telling me i have something so that i'm not denied health insurance.

but that's just a tiny paranoid part of my brain that wonders such things. the rest of my brain is saying... "now, where do i get a cute pair of oven mitts to wear when i eat ice cream?" etsy? ... i see a business opportunity for someone...